Exodus/The Web

"Regeneration" had set the stage for the ongoing saga of releasing and letting go. A couple of weeks later with the solar eclipse new moon, another companion and myself entered the same canyon on the more remote rugged east end. Just before the solar eclipse, I had wanted to cancel the hike. I didn't think I would be able to manage my discomfort, and I hadn't yet encorporated the message of allowing
energy to pass through without holding on. Encouraging friends convinced me to go and complete the lunar/solar, death-rebirth cycle.

On our way to the opposite end of the canyon, I accidentally drove over a monstrous rattlesnake that was basking on the hot pavement. I noticed that it was injured and was undulating, staying in one place, stuck on the pavement with no apparent forward motion....Just like myself! I was also injured, and remaining stuck. This incident set the stage for my journey to heal and free myself. I have always identified with the powerful transformational energy of the snake.
At dusk we began our journey and dropped into the canyon, and began to hike in the cool stream. When our vision was impaired by night-time shadows, we pulled out of the stream and lay down on the ground under under a dark canopy of trees. In the twilight zone between the worlds, I was greeted by two energies that announced themselves as spirit guides. I grappled with my equipment to locate my flashlight and wrote "Amir" and "Saneha". Saneha said he was to help me to have a sense of humor and Amir stated that he was to assist me in using my intuition to learn how to heal my body. My logical self was thinking that this experience can't be real. I'm going to need proof!

The next morning, a crane flew close overhead which symbolized healing and regeneration. A deer held me spellbound as he stared at me within close proximity. Afternoon shifted into long deep indigo shadows as we approached "Hell Hole Canyon". After setting up a primitive campsite in a cave, we proceeded further up the narrow slot wall canyon to a virgin spring set deep in a grotto. We scrambled up into the womb of the opening. Water spewed out of the rock into a perfectly shaped clam shell basin. Directly above our heads on the cave ceiling were hundreds of spiders moving up and down in vibrational unison. Some spiders entangled themselves in my hair. The intuitive message I received was that I was entangled in my own web of creation. I would be consumed and victimized if I didn't avoid the trap. We created a ceremony with passionate intent. I requested release from being caught and ensnared in the web of my own reality in career, relationship, and health. We co-created with Spirit to experience all that was ours to experience in the most positive productive way. I also agreed to release the safe zone of who I perceived myself to be in three major arenas...career, relationship and health.

A large hawk took flight in front of me as a reminder to view the higher
perspective of the entangling webs I had created. It was time to be patient and to see what comes. Darkness had enveloped the canyon by the time we returned to our campsite.

The next morning, I was compelled to return to the spring. As I sat under the cool cascading water, an insight suddenly came to me. Using my intuition I heard my spirit guide "Sane-ha" state that in order to be mentally fit or "sane", we need to see humor in any given situation! I needed to laugh and I could free myself of constrictions. I felt a deep confirmation that my guides were real, and the logic of the name Sane"ha" was the proof.

As I hiked out of the canyon I noticed that any self-doubt and criticism intensified pain. When I lightened up and let go, the pain immediately left. Amir said that good health and rejuvenation were linked to not getting stuck in negative emotions that age the body.

When I returned home, I wasn't convinced that I needed to paint "Flight
Exodus/ The Web." I wanted Spirit to push me out of my complacent attitude. For the few weeks everywhere I went I noticed spiders and webs. They came to me in my house. When I hiked, I "accidentally" walked through webs and webs followed me around on my shoes.

I did my first solo backpack and climbed a fourteen thousand foot peak in Colorado. Just as I was contemplating breaking free of entrapments, I saw a huge spider crawl up the glistening strands of its web and break free! Spirit was sending me so many signals. When I returned from Colorado I completed the painting with passionate intent.

Like the spider I decided to step out of the web, release control of outcome, and to see what manifests...to co-create with Spirit and to trust. I was shown how to transform the three major arenas of my life. In relationship, a shift of perception needed to occur. In career, new directions were taken. In health, I needed to relax and let go.

To avoid being a victim, as a fly entangled waiting to be eaten and
victimized, I needed to see the bigger picture of how to extract myself from the web. The web has many roads of escape. The choice is mine, as to which way to exit. Is it a shift in perception of my experience, a new course of action, or a combination of both?